5481c №14869
i tried playing minecraft at different times with today two seperate friends but i did basically nothing and felt super aimless
maybe i’m just dat retarded

5481c №14870
any time i ask for the melatonin we supposedly have i get ignored for legit no reason
5481c №14871
my legs and arms are aching too mich i just wanna cut them off
5481c №14873
how do ppl draw on phones this sucks balls
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5481c №14874
either i completely disappear for 2 weeks rotting away with an adderall brain doing some bullshit or i actually do different things this time i wonder what 🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔
5481c №14875
being cut doesn’t really hurt as much as it used too…. hmm i wonder
5481c №14877
>>14876i used to act like such a soyfag it makes me laugh looking back at old dms i had with people wtf was i on
5481c №14879
can supersage stop breaking thanks
anyway i need to rest my eyes
5481c №14881
nvm i bit my tongue accidentally
332da №14884
>>14882Deadass tyhought this was a foot
5481c №14961
like i said in the other thread frotting sucks just put it in the butt nobody carws
5481c №14962
shower soon becuz idk
5481c №14964
gonna ask for melatonin too ig
5481c №14980
>>14964fail there’s really none
wharever bro i get my shit tommoro 🤤
332da №14982
>>14872Ur just emotiobwlly confused this is Not amger
5481c №14983
>>14981thing is i don’t go outside for anything wver so errr
5481c №14984
>>14982maybe but i just get so restless when i don’t talk to someone now for some reason its weird and dumb
332da №14986
>>14984Hmm
Opposite for me
5481c №14991
>>14986unbothered
respect tho
332da №14992
>>14990Use ur maps to find a pharmacy closest to u and use directions to get there
5481c №14998
>>14992i can’t drive myself
i’m going to get my meds anyway tomorrow i’ll tough it out
5481c №15016
goodnight chinny
5481c №15035
waiting to leave
5481c №15085
i finally got my Adderall holy shit
5481c №15101
im not quite sure what to do right now maybe i’ll draw??? idk what of yet bc uhh stuff
5481c №15105
>>15102oke sure in a lil bit i gotta draw an oc for a friend
4a731 №15141
>>15138Heh.
R
ome wasmt huilt in a day hou kniw 🍷🗿
5481c №15170
>>15141true though it’s embarrassing as fuck to spend this long on a sketch
>>15142i’m giga retarded and my line confidence is completely shit so i’ve just been redrawing so much just to fix any of my mistakes

5481c №15171
can my thoughts stop telling me to overdose nothing is even happening

4a731 №15224
>>15170hmmm ,mmmmmm hmhm jaybe try mesh transform tools if they're on firealpaca? like the smudge ones but instead of blurring the thing it just moves your lines. and try doing picrel if youre not already doing picrel
and potentioncally raise the stabilizer if theres an option for that😊
>>15171outlive your opps bro🍷🗿
4a731 №15328
bump
5481c №15329
i forgor about this thread
5481c №15330
>>15224yeah ur right, thank u for the info i’ll definitely try and do that later when i get the motivation to draw some more
5481c №15332
i drew something today and actually let it be when it was pretty much finished wow
i don’t think i’ll post it here but i’m kinda happy with it
5481c №15481
i feel like shit
5481c №15530
my sister got me sick so doing anything sucks even with 60 mg of adderall
332da №15531
>>15530Yo is it the new vrius
5481c №15533
>>15531idk probably somethng mild but it's making me feel mentally exhausted i can't even draw now
332da №15535
>>15533Omagah get checked..m
d69ab №15543
>>15529You will never be him
5481c №15545
>>15543niggerson? i own that nigger
5481c №15568
>>15558I just hate when nobody can match my energy, it feels like sometimes i’m talking to a brick walk with certain people
332da №15575
>>15570Talk w like ai theyre like slavrs and can talk to y for hours if ur so good at talking n shidt
5481c №15576
>>15575I have before it's just weird, i don't like that it never really challenges me or anything and also the fact i can just repeat messages stunlocks me. idk i prefer talking to real people cause at least what i have to say matters sometimes
332da №15577
>>15576I wish my mind wasnt so competitive fr ive failed to truly delusionmaxx slmost my whol life my imaginary friends dyring preschool lasted barely a week
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>>15577I've never really managed to have something like that, i think i just don't have the imagination for it or something…
but i can see why that'd be a bit strenuous..
332da №15579
>>15578I should get a free pass tobc im so good and styff
332da №15580
Oouhh sorry i didnt know okay u want to sage it
4a731 №15587
>>15530dawwwwwwwwwwwwwh get well soon
>>15556oh im sorry :( online friendships are tough. i hope you have better luck in real life broman
5481c №15596
>>15587i actually did feel betrer kind of
also i haven’t made any friends with anyone irl in over 6 years so..

5481c №15598
i frgt to sage but i have beem awake for 2 daus this sucks i hate this
5481c №15599
owwe
5481c №15660
i got a nice rest
>>15620i try but it's really hard considering how much imageboards are my life now
4a731 №15663
>>15596im glad youre feeling better

and idk what you hould do about the irl friend thing to be honst. i dont hav e that much experience making friends irl but maybe you can try getting into some normie fandoms or communities and see where that goes :D
5481c №15666
>>15663i haven't been outside in over a month bro it's over before it starts, thank you for the advice though. i'll keep rotting

5481c №15948
i finally took my adderall again today, time to work on wiki slop even though i should be drawing
5481c №15975
lowk miss the shemmy but not like when poly was on it
7d4da №15983
>>15975Poly's shemmy was more soulful and active than any other period of the shemmy.
8490a №15989
>>15975me too 😞
>>15983dont kid yourself brah it was not that good. angeleno mogged
5481c №16095
i’ve been awake for 2 days and i can’t fucking ffall asleep i tried legit for 3 hours earlier and i couldnmt get a bit of sleep fuck
5481c №16096
80 mgs when i ran out of slewping pills was NOT the move
5481c №16097
i still feel so awake in a weird way
332da №16099
Irs like awake x sleepy its so weird i hate adderall sonmetimes
5481c №16100
>>16099yeh my mind keeps going even though im so physically tired urghn
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i ran out of fucking trazadon. I was given some melatonin pills after whining abt it and got like 3 and took them but they ain’t doing ANYTHING
332da №16105
>>16104I thought u were on adde
5481c №16108
waht ru confusde abt??
5481c №16110
my head is statting to burn the more i look at mynphone
332da №16112
>>16110SAME BUT YOURS IS PROBABLY WORSE SO IK MOT GONNHACOMPLAIN ABOUT MINE.
5481c №16113
>>16112no u can complain we borh can complain dats normal
5481c №16114
am surprisned my eyes haven’t completely started burning constsntly yet… shouldn’t get too hopefull though
5481c №16115
eurhgjghh
332da №16117
>>16116Pinch place between index &&thumb finger
5481c №16118
>>16117ehmnn i think i did it,, idk if cannfully do soemthing aht it when i should he sleepinn instwad
5481c №16125
>>16124i got angry and paranoid some people i knew stopped talking to me or someting liek that
d7946 №16126
>>16125did you have a reason to be paranoid
5481c №16127
>>16126ya they wer talking abt my personal shit publicly
d7946 №16128
>>16127Thats not really paranoia thats just realizing your friends are douchebags
5481c №16129
>>16128no like it’s kinda hard to describe but i get insanely freaked out nowadays if i notice anything that might be going wrong with any of my friendships
d7946 №16130
>>16129thats probably a normal response
If theyre openly releasing and mocking personal info you didnt want to be made public its normal to get pissed off but
that sucks alot i can understand why youd get paranoid especially if you dont have anyone else as a friend
5481c №16131
>>16130yeah its a big problem i end up talking to myswlf alot of times and it spirals into over thinking about stuff
d7946 №16134
>>16131Its better to talk to yourself then niggas who will backstab you if it meant making people laugh
5481c №16147
i actually got some sleep

5481c №16148
>>16134maybe, though I feel like it’s just makingnme go crazy

5481c №16246
100 mg of adderall gone just like that
i guess bro
5481c №16247
i guess i’ll just be not getting any sleep
5481c №16248
nigga im rotting
d7946 №16249
cp
5481c №16292
i think i ran out of adderall
332da №16294
>>16292How long until yoir next batch arrives
332da №16305
I noticed after posting
5481c №16306
>>16303ii probably couldve stretched my supply out moar so its fine, i used to liek go through an entire refill in 2 weeks so…
332da №16308
>>16306Maybe next time pick out one or two for the last days , start with that. ☺️
5481c №16309
>>16308il ask when i wake up again if have any 😸
332da №16310
And its good to have breaks
332da №16311
>>16309Do u not havw anymore atm
5481c №16312
>>16311i dont know i sidnt ask for any today but i took like 5 earlier so i have a feeling im out now
5481c №16314
im getting some visual hallucinations now! wonderful
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5481c №16315
itz too fucking hot i cant fall asleep even if im conplwtely naked oh my fucking god
5481c №16316
nuke summer
332da №16317
>>16316Can the sun..stop rxploding?
5481c №16318
>>16317seriously why cant it be cold onh my god
5481c №16319
i cant even use a blanket i over heat i have to use a sheet to cover up
5481c №16320
hmm ok i have 2 adderall left
5481c №16321
im starting to tear up for no reason maybe i should put the phone down
332da №16322
>>16321MOOD
MOOD
MOOD
MOOD.
MOOD.
5481c №16323
aughh i don’t wanna fall asleep
5481c №16324
i need to be scared
5481c №16325
i saw a little thing race across my bedroom floor
5481c №16326
the tears stopped
5481c №16328
ok i’ll be quiet before i end up mania posting on the fucking chinny of all places
5481c №16330
oh my god
5481c №16518
fuuuuck i forgot theres 31 days in may and i just ran out

whatever i guess being lethargic for a day won’t be that bad.
845e6 №16521
>>16520can you post a photo?
5481c №16522
>>16521i’m not that desperate for attention yet
845e6 №16525
>>16524What's embarassing about gooning we're all brown here
5481c №16527
>>16525what are you even begging for exactly
5481c №16529
>>16528do you think i’m an attention whore or something
why would i post that on the retarded cp meme site
5481c №16530
who even are you ???? 😭😭😭😭
5481c №16532
oh my god wait i know now
5481c №16533
>>16531lviv isn’t that gay
5481c №16534
anytime i look at old dms of myself from like a year ago i kept trying to act tuff just cause i was trying to be professional like no you ain’t stop thecap 😂
5481c №16535
i should stop being so trusting of people lowk
8be5f №16558
>>16519Wha;t!WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! maybe its the software . have you tried medibang on pc? ithink its free
>>16520rare giga
>>16531I am Retep. And I am Evil
5481c №16581
>>16558i’m jist being a selfish little fuck and spending way too long trying to fix every little mistake in my line art so it looks clean
5481c №16582
my eyes hurt so bad
one hour of fucking sleep

8be5f №16616
>>16581dawh okay…
>>16582why do you sleep so little?????????????????????????
5481c №16621
>>16616insomnia or someyhing like that, plus adderall messed it up a ton :/
5481c №16623
was so busy this month i barely got to play anything… i totally wanna play SOMETHING when i finish drawing but idk what yet 🤔
5481c №16624
ughh i just realized the 31st is a sunday. ig i HAVE to wait for the 1st.. miserable.
5481c №16625
who up touching they worm
5481c №16628
>>16627i like playing wit my brushes
5481c №16635
even when off my adderall j do not feel like eating anything still
this might be a good thing 🤔
5481c №16649
can theese coughs go away please
332da №16650
>>16649!!U have an excuse to try cough syrup now
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my birthday today
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Gubby birthday
7a65a №16823
>>16791HAPPY BIRTHDAY😄😄😄😄😄😄😄😄😄😄😄😄😄😄😄😄😄😄🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🎂🎂🎂🎂🎂🎂🎂🎂🎂🎂🎉🎊🎊🎊🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉
5481c №16824
>>16823thaaaaaaaaaaaaank uuuu
d7946 №16833
>>16791Happy 36th birthday
5481c №16836
i feel so lonely and desperate
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5481c №16840
ice cream hurting my teeth
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i wanna take a nap there’s nothing going on
cfc26 №16847
>>16842It's okay schizo just go on /chud/
d7946 №16853
>>16834Too young safe edgy
5481c №16859
my hips hurt
5481c №16866
so fucking bored
5481c №16876
yawwwwnnn
5481c №16877
my teeth hurt like a bitcch even though i brush them everyday maybe my wisdom teeth sre fucking up
5481c №16906
i really wanted to finish a drawing but i guess i’ll have to wait till i get my adderall again
fuuuuuck
332da №17080
>>16529>>16530omg , the next time someone ask u for something private like that just say "no" , okay?
5481c №17102
>>17080i was being ridiculous just cause lool
332da №17105
>>17102same i do that
i had a bittersweet dream . M
5481c №17106
>>17105wym bittersweet dream ?/
332da №17107
>>17106good but a lil dreadfully and angsty
5481c №17108
>>17107mmh well hopefully it wasn't too bad yknow
332da №17111
courlfd be happier dream
5481c №17147
i feel empty as fuck idgaf anymore
killing myself by end of month like a giga if i can get my meds again
5481c №17435
>>17147nvm cancelled lowk nothing to be stressed by
back to torturing myself by trying to make art in adobe animate though!! 😁😁😁😁
332da №17436
>>17435it looks eeallhy smooth
5481c №17437
>>17436needs to be smoother though… thx though <3
7a65a №17439
>>17437if you want extrememly smooth lines ,you can try doing vector art. im pretty sure that's a feature on adobe animat.
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>>17439that's a default thingy I'm pretty sure…
i think my line confidence is just too untrained since i never practiced as much as i should've…
so i have to manually go and edit or redraw any wobbly lines…
7a65a №17441
>>17440practjce when you get the time or ill come out of the screen and take a bite out of your head☝️🗿
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>>17441i'm going to try and draw every day for like 30 or so days to see if i can improve. i really don't want to study though, shit looks and seems way too hard.
also are you still not able to use tg btww?
7a65a №17453
>>17442wellthere's a lot of types of draiwng practices. experimentation and patience is key☝️ and im able to use tg now yes😊
5481c №17463
80 mg too much
too much
still don’t feel tired
5481c №17464
i’m decomposing nigga 😺
332da №17465
>>17464My spiritanimal is a slug or mold
5481c №17466
>>17465the only correct way to live